United States – Male

I have been a Christian but my life has gone nowhere at all . It is still a big fat lie and huge failure ! A big disappointment. I didn’t get new life from God. This has been ongoing 20 years ! Everything is limited . Nothing looks promising. I have serious financial job and living situations on the horizon. I can’t go upward ! I prayed a million times . I really wanted new life from God when I got baptized but I didn’t get it . There are uncertainty than ever before ! I really need to see the real God now